Judges 19*, ords, seminary & the PCUSA

When word broke that the PCUSA ordination translation exam in Hebrew would be on the rape located in Judges 19.* I like most of my colleagues had to go and reread the passage to familiarize myself as to just how triggering it might be. (This is a passage on abuse, rape and violence, all the trigger warnings)

This passage is not included in any of the lectionary (cycles that are regularly preached upon) in the Bible, for good reason, and thus is not at my fingertips in meaning. I just remember it is bad. Upon rereading, it’s really, really terrible and should only be studied in certain settings and with care and understanding.

Ordination exams in the PCUSA are, in my opinion, similar to Doctoral exams and lawyer bars because they harken back to the days when pastors, doctors and lawyers were the most educated and well paid individuals in the community. Let me say succinctly that although pastors positions have changed, the tests in the PCUSA have not changed much, in fact what used to be referred to as the Baby Bible: a quiz on Bible knowledge, has become more difficult.

To put to task someone, five days alone, translating a triggering and traumatic text is the opposite of pastoral. Especially when we require all of our candidates for ministry to undergo psychological assessments before they go into ministry. A good and just practice for everyone involved.

Let me first break down the responses I have seen to those who have objected to the test and then take a big picture view of the entire situation.

First, the responses are completely insufficient. First the committee said that they had someone did raise objections that the Judges 19* might be triggering but they met and prayed on it and proceeded anyway.

Then they said that the fact that this is a 3 year process to set up tests and readers means that at this juncture they consider it too late to do anything more.

Now the committee is stating they will let people take the next round of tests without charge, which will still delay ordinations, jobs and not be that helpful. Also the committee are responding individually and have not yet made a public statement meaning some students will be left in the dark.

To take a more broad view, let me just say that there is a huge pastoral shortage, seminaries are in flux about how to educate people, finding readers is a huge task and most Presbyteries, Synods, etc. are also understaffed. In short the denomination has hit the wall. The last gathering I went to with a bunch of PCUSA attendees I heard more than once people voice that they were uncertain that the denomination would last more than ten years.

Additionally, in light of Covid-19 et. al, I want to say that I can understand that the committee probably, was in survival mode, and missed what they should have seen. However, it’s not too late to change course.

I also want to say that, probably why it is so hard to change course is because I believe that it is not just Judges 19* that is on the line. The entire ordination exam program is not working. The reason why the committee feels like they have to go forward, is because everything will crumble if they do not keep going as is–maybe it’s time to let things crumble.

The ordination system is not working anymore, the seminary system has the fewest number of students ever, I and my parents were shocked to hear of the handful of attendees that are now in the seminary we attended instead of the couple of hundred that attended when I was there a mere twelve years ago.

Change is upon us. The programs that are succeeding, like my doctorate of ministry in creative writing at Pittsburgh Seminary, are so different that they seem to come out of left field and surprise everyone. Even the successful things seem to be overwhelming at such a time as this.

Sometimes I think all the church people are walking around saying to each other “Do you mean we have to change everything?” and the Holy Spirit just keeps coaxing us along in the best possible ways. I think there are faithful and joyful ways for it to all happen, if we have the ears to hear it all–however the signs of change have been around us for a while and we are reaching the point of no return where it will only get harder, not easier.

I am a revitalization minister. My specialty is to take a ministry that has hit rock bottom, and know it has to change, and to work with the strengths it already has towards the new thing God has already planted within us. It is different than interim work, it’s not just shaking things up or holding the position for the new person, it is planting a million seeds, building trust and doing the work of transformation.

I believe that God can revitalize the PCUSA, but it would take a lot of change, a lot of money, and a lot of new things. It would be very scary. It would mean admitting that the old ways are not working, and seeing those things that signal to bigger problems.

It takes a lot of good hard work, but then Presbyterians are not afraid of work.

Also, I believe in resurrection. In order for us to be a resurrection people, some things have to die. This is the harsh truth of who we are and how we live. I believe in the resurrection and the life everlasting and the Kin(g)dom–this is part and parcel of why I am a revitalization minister. It’s not all about heaven for me.

I think we all need to look at the Judges 19* conversation again as a broader one of what we mean by ordination, church, seminary and our denomination in general.

And yes, we need to change the test too, immediately.

*I am not inviting you to read Judges 19 if you are a victim of abuse or sexual violence. Please take care of yourself.

Also People who are writing about the inherent sexism and privilege intrinsic in this decision, which is true and harrowing. I myself am thankfully not a victim of violence. Here is a good place to start Traci Smith

Petition to sign here https://chng.it/SSJQZN7JcK?fbclid=IwAR21DsfFx36ObHSke2kzijvbpgW4mtTsJqE9WdOjrsGVFGZYyk6wV7DiazQ&mibextid=Zxz2cZ

Addendum: Here is a response from the Rev. Dr. Wil Gafney who is a renowned Womanist scholar and Creator of A Women’s Lectionary for the whole church https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=pfbid02VjrkApc64FrjTaRBas8ZqgBbdv6L86iKrczckSSf8u9sSZpddnwhj6TK8a6sqgwDl&id=1244593681

This Outlook article gives another good perspective https://pres-outlook.org/2023/02/pcusa-administrators-respond-to-public-outcry-after-text-of-terror-is-selected-for-hebrew-exegesis-exam/

Here is a link about how Jesus might do self care in light of the exams: https://katyandtheword.com/2023/02/03/self-care/

Katy Stenta is a writer, Student of Creative Writing as Public Theology at Pittsburgh Seminary, and creator of liturgy.

The Fight, a Prayer

God,
I’m so tired of fighting the same fight
Over and over

And yet here we are
Fighting…or is it trying
to find the solution together.

Sometimes, it feels the same
as words fail, time is on repeat
And hurt seems inevitable

It’s like a storm inside your heart rages
And it meets the hurricane of the other
And you are both striving, and beloved

God do you have teenagers?
Are you tired of repeating yourself to
Humanity, the Church, Powers and Principalities?

Do you speak so softly God,
That people get even more fiercely angry,
Because they think you sound condescending?

God what did you do, when after isolating us (Eden)
Punishing us (Babel, Noah’s Ark)
How did you realize the right way to be in relationship with us?

Was the moment when you said, You can cry and scream at me all you want
And I promise I will still love you

Well that’s something I can get behind

Grace in the the storms

God be with us in the fight
Amen

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Top Ten of 2022

Top Ten Prayers of the Year

1. https://katyandtheword.com/…/31/god-of-pronouns-a-prayer/ A Prayer to Our God who IS the God of Pronouns (This was the clear winner this year)

2. https://katyandtheword.com/…/god-bless-the-church-a…/ Blessing all the KINDS of Churching we are and do. (This was a VERY strong second)

3. https://katyandtheword.com/2022/01/11/toddling-a-prayer/ A prayer about being tired of the Pivot!

4. https://katyandtheword.com/2022/02/25/empty-handed-prayer/ A Prayer for “Thoughts & Prayers”

5. https://katyandtheword.com/…/mothers-day-confession…/ Just a confession for mothers day, there’s not a lot of those written

6. https://katyandtheword.com/…/the-lord-is-our-shepherd…/ fun Psalm 23 Prayer, which Sheep are you?

7. https://katyandtheword.com/…/prayer-for-canceling…/ Prayers for all those who have to cancel in 2023 in blizzards, cold and sickness

8. https://katyandtheword.com/2021/12/31/betty-whites-timing/ Prayer Remembering and Honoring Betty White

9. Mara: A Bitter Prayer (about Gun Violence) https://katyandtheword.com/2022/05/25/mara-a-bitter-prayer/

9. https://katyandtheword.com/2022/04/09/palm-sunday-a-prayer/ Jesus’s very human moment to do Palm Sunday

10. https://katyandtheword.com/…/11/coming-out-day-a-prayer/ A Prayer for God Coming Out as Queer

10. https://katyandtheword.com/…/disability-glorified-a…/ Jesus and Disability, starting with “doubting” (I call him brave) Thomas

Top 10 Resources I’ve Written, from 2022

1. “This Here Flesh” Sermon Series https://katyandtheword.com/…/this-here-flesh-sermon…/ (again a clear winner this year)

2. Narrative Lectionary Advent Candles Liturgy https://katyandtheword.com/…/narrative-lectionary…/

3. Narrative Lectionary Fall 2022 https://katyandtheword.com/…/narrative-lectionary-fall…/

4. Christ the Lord is Risen Today Alternative Lyricshttps://katyandtheword.com/2022/04/14/christ-the-lord-is-risen-today-alt-lyrics/

5. Advent Extended Liturgy: Justice, Mercy & Light https://katyandtheword.com/…/justice-mercy-light…/

6. Gathering and Gospelling, Worship Series based on The Art of Gathering and Unbinding the Gospel: https://katyandtheword.com/…/gathering-gospelling-the…/

7. Blue Christmas, a Comfort Candle, Take home Liturgy https://katyandtheword.com/…/blue-christmas-comfort…/

8. Lent Narrative Lectionary: From Lament to Hope https://katyandtheword.com/…/lent-narrative-lectionary…/

9. Narrative Lectionary Fall 2022 Rainbow God/Queer Edition https://katyandtheword.com/…/narrative-lectionary-fall…/

10. Gun Violence Prevention Prayers https://katyandtheword.com/2022/05/26/gun-violence-prayers/

It’s nice to see everything in review–Happy 2023, may it be full of Blessings

Longest Night Christmas Prayer

Nativity, 2022 (Ukraine) by Irenaeus Yurchuk.

Jesus,
Sweet Baby Jesus
Born in the midst of a collapsing empire
Hidden in plain sight from everything and everyone official


When different factions of the religion
were all claiming to be the “truer” one
Each saying if you don’t worship our way
You don’t belong to God.

You were born when a Messiah
Seemed to be around every corner
Lamps were left on at night and demagogues and dynamic cult leaders
Were followed at whim, because people needed hope

And the gulf between who was poor and who was rich
The distinction between who was citizen and who was not
The taste in one’s mouth when people called one another
Foreigner, Outsider, or Different was sour and full of hate

Violence was everywhere
Children, the Poor, The Elderly, The Lonely, the Sex Worker
were Ignored or Forgotten
Laws were passed against anyone deemed Unclean in any way (oh my Queer siblings!)

Jesus Christ, you were born in a time
When no one was receiving proper healthcare
So people banged down your door
for a bit of healing

And my heart aches
With the familiarity, you could be born today
Is this why you have to be born into today’s world?
Have we forgotten why we need you?

Sometimes I wonder if you haven’t returned
Because we haven’t learned enough?
Heretic thought I know
But I sit in the hate and terror and worry Jesus

Jesus Christ, we need you. A baby
A sneak king full of healing and mischevious teachings of Grace
Jesus we need someone who will sit in the dirt with the marginal
and embody the Peace so much that we will sit in the dirt with you.

Sweet baby Jesus, though I know we picture angels, shepherds, & magi
I think that a baby born in the war-torn dark
might be the truth
Help us to sit with that, in the shortest day and longest night I pray.

Amen.

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Books, Books, Poetry, Books

Here it is, the Booklist (Remember this is TWO classes worth) One is Poetry and the other is Experimental Poetry

……so it can be seen as either intimidating or fun
Please peruse and find what you can at your local library! I’m told with ZONG its best to read it before Splay Anthem and to start with the end, which explains a lot of it!
Maggie Nelson, Bluets 
Sam Stephenson, Gene Smith’s Sink 
Aisha Sabatini Sloan, Borealis 
Nicole Rudick, What Is Now Known Was Only Once Imagined 
Terrance Hayes, To Float in the Space Between 
Aracelis Girmay, The Black Maria 
John Edgar Wideman, Writing to Save a Life 
Chris Kraus, After Kathy Acker 
Heather Christle, The Crying Book 
Muriel Rukeyser, The Book of the Dead 
Eileen Myles, Afterglow
M. NourbeSe Philip, Zong! (Wesleyan Poetry Series) by 
Nathaniel Mackey, Splay Anthem 

About 1/3rd I could acquire from the library (not bad) only one was an expensive new release and it was half off (whew originally $60). I, of course, bought a bunch used. So the total was $113.80. I admit I was like wow that’s a lot; ok not really for two classes of books. So if I could grab another $120 of fundraising that would be amazing.

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Writing, Creative Writing D. Min

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#Advent 2 RCL

Isaiah 11 Advent 2 assumes we are broken and withered,

No one is healthy and whole

We are the remnant in need

and need care, the shoot comes from the stump

And glorious rest is promised at the end

That is The Emmanuel

Advent promises

Give everyone sick leave

medical care

housing

And mental health care

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Advent Prayer

Here’s a Prayer for Advent
For those are stuck in injustice for so long
they seek justice with every breath they breathe
and long for a new kind of liberation.

Here’s a prayer for those
stuck in the throes of grief
gnarled in the pain
and cannot feel those who are holding their hands in darkness.

Here is a prayer those
sick so prologuedly, they don’t remember
what health feels like, and subsist instead
on better days.

Here’s a prayer for the lonely
whose teeth ache when they see companionship
who lurk in the corners of libraries and shops
and love to converse with strangers and angels unawares.

Here’s a prayer for the victims
of violence and abuse
from microagressions to verbal, from physical to assassination
To all those who cannot be safe because where they are or who they are.

Here’s a prayer for those who just don’t know Lord
They are just so tired and confused, and stuck
They aren’t sure where to go next or what to do
But they are certain that they need to figure out the next step.

Here’s a prayer for those on the edge of death,
you know the ones God, waiting for that next family gathering
or that last visit, or the strength to let go–
Or even Christmas to pass, in order to join the rest of the Saints.

This is a prayer for all those waiting,
Maybe what we have is not yet hope, perhaps it is hoping for hope
But that is enough to light the candle together
That is enough to wait for God together, for the miracle whispers to us.

It whispers of the one who is to come:
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Purveyor of Peace
And Government will rest upon their shoulders–
God, we are holding our breath, and light the candle hoping for hope.

We are praying with the world today, O Come, O Come Emmanuel we Pray. Amen.

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Full Advent Resources

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