God, is there any prayer like going into surgery? Closing your eyes to the world– Holding your beloveds close to you.
Somehow you try to remind yourself to breathe
Is that how it felt Christ, when you healed?
Did you hold their beloveds close to them? And remind them to breathe?
Bless those undergoing surgery their beloved the doctors, nurses, and all the technicians, custodians, secretaries and support staff who we work too hard along the way
Do I complain about this speed bump now? The Covid standing in the way of surgery?
I’m taking a deep breath–of gratitude for quadruple vaccinations And so few symptoms that I did not know
And thankfulness for masks
and frantic prayers that I didn’t infect anyone–and really that I didn’t infect anyone vulnerable.
And for a Day of Work that somehow came together in Coverage really its a miracle, so easy that I feel guilty about how easy it was I know you gotta be laughing at that one God How easily we humans feel guilty, right? (But I planned to be there and had been excited to see all the people and miss them)
But really, I long for deep healing The rest and restoration that I could almost taste
The baby-sitting, rides, meals, work, set-ups, coverage, therapy, bracing
I really do not want a drop of it to go to waste, and the idea of setting it all up again is Daunting Wearying Soul-wrenching
So I pray that you have this figured out already Just like the Church Government meeting I obviously could not go to this week–what with the surgery and/or covid (that I thought I wanted to sign up for)
And so many other things as they go past that I thought, oh I thought I wanted to sign up for that, but I’m glad I didn’t because I realize now that I did not really have the time for that.
Ok God,
What now?
The wait for Monday is a Lot– And this feels more like a speed bump to healing It feels like a mountain, or a quest
I lift my eyes to the hills the annoying, freaking have to climb them hills From whom will my help come?
Fine it will come from the Lord my God…
But I don’t have to like it today.
Here’s hoping for surgery on the other end.
Amen.
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