OK God,
Do I complain about this speed bump now?
The Covid standing in the way of surgery?
I’m taking a deep breath–of gratitude for quadruple vaccinations
And so few symptoms that I did not know
And thankfulness for masks
and frantic prayers that I didn’t infect anyone–and really that I didn’t infect anyone vulnerable.
And for a Day of Work that somehow came together in Coverage
really its a miracle, so easy that I feel guilty about how easy it was
I know you gotta be laughing at that one God
How easily we humans feel guilty, right?
(But I planned to be there and had been excited to see all the people and miss them)
But really, I long for deep healing
The rest and restoration that I could almost taste
The baby-sitting, rides, meals, work, set-ups, coverage, therapy, bracing
I really do not want a drop of it to go to waste, and the idea of setting it all up again is
Daunting
Wearying
Soul-wrenching
So I pray that you have this figured out already
Just like the Church Government meeting I obviously could not go to this week–what with the surgery and/or covid (that I thought I wanted to sign up for)
And so many other things as they go past that I thought, oh I thought I wanted to sign up for that, but I’m glad I didn’t because I realize now that I did not really have the time for that.
Ok God,
What now?
The wait for Monday is a Lot–
And this feels more like a speed bump to healing
It feels like a mountain, or a quest
I lift my eyes to the hills
the annoying, freaking have to climb them hills
From whom will my help come?
Fine it will come from the Lord my God…
But I don’t have to like it today.
Here’s hoping for surgery on the other end.
Amen.
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