But I’ve planted a garden almost every year despite the fact, my thumb is black, and nothing will ever grow
I have sat alone in middle school, at the lunch table, at the classroom Being told to shut up every time I’ve spoken, isolated and alone
I have left a room only to realize later that I participated in White Supremacy– Leaving a Person of Color to fend for themselves
And I have participated in politics that have lead to people having to leave or find solace, because they were so hurt by what happened
I have cried Hosanna! after Massive Gun Violence And Gender Violence So many times–with phone calls, votes and letters
Again, and again, and again
I wasn’t there on Good Friday But I have been abandoned or done the Abandoning
Jesus, I picture you starting your descent into hell with the words “My God, My God, Why have you abandoned me”
I wasn’t there that Good Friday– Almost no one was– Yet that was the point
Hate Violence Politics Sexism Patriarchy, All the bad things…seemed to be winning
I wasn’t there Good Friday, But I have felt those pieces of Hell, the utter loneliness the failure I have heard the devil whispering to me
that I’m too different that my voice doesn’t matter that peace won’t win
that my betrayals are bigger than my good works
that THAT scene, the one on replay in my head? Everyone remembers that one about me
I don’t know how Jesus utterly cut off from Love in Hell
But I know all humans feel that at some point; so I know you did it Jesus
You walked into Hell… so we wouldn’t be alone there anymore
To remind us that Nothing no height, no death, no angels no demons heaven nor hell can cut us off from the love of Jesus Christ
I wasn’t there Good Friday..But you were, Un-abandoning us Sitting with us We can’t see you or hear you in the dark
But thanks for being there with me when the seeds won’t grow, at the lonesome lunch table Or in the Aftermath
And it’s ok to sit in the dark for awhile Amen.
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Senator Jones in the foreground Rep Pearson in the background in a black suit—both with their fists raised after the two young, black men were expelled from Tennessee House for partying peaceful anti-gun demonstrations, the white woman senator was allowed to remain
I firmly believe Jesus Christ I confess your Lordship
And it does not scare me The way power does in the hands of lets say some humans
Because I have seen You healer Christ teacher Christ companion Christ
I have seen you sitting at the well hanging out with the outcasts talking to the tax collectors the nuerodivergent the disabled
the poor, ethnically, religiously, differently gendered You see them, talk to them and call them by name
I know what the authorities called you dangerous rabble rouser
Trouble
I know that you you don’t care about money status and power
And on your last day on earth You ate some good food With friends you took some time to pray and asked your friends to sit with you
And you made a point to get on your knees and wash their feet
People picture your return in glory–and that tongues will confess Jesus as Lord As some kind of military thing (Again)
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus It is clear that we have learned nothing Since you hung bow, your weapon, your Rainbow up permanently in the sky That many-a-thousand-years ago
But I know your secret When you return–every knee will bow …because you will return as you came stooping down to see heaven and earth
Kneeling to serve
And we are Allllll all of us gonna kneel….to get next to you
Every knee will bow indeed
We will knee next to our Savior and confess….Lord I want to do what you are doing I want to serve the people you are serving
It will be Maundy Thursday Incarnate Communion filling our tongues with Love and the Servant Lordship of Jesus Christ Confession–all of it the same
I cannot wait to kneel beside you and confess
Jesus Christ is Lord Amen, Amen
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Just wanted to say that my Hosanna prayer has been viewed well over 3,000 times and I know a lot of churches read it last Sunday/other times–thanks to everyone who prayed with me…in whatever capacity….this week
On the first day of Unleavened Bread the disciples came to Jesus, saying, “Where do you want us to make the preparations for you to eat the Passover?” He said, “Go into the city to a certain man, and say to him, ‘The Teacher says, My time is near; I will keep the Passover at your house with my disciples.’” So the disciples did as Jesus had directed them, and they prepared the Passover meal. When it was evening, he took his place with the twelve; and while they were eating, he said, “Truly I tell you, one of you will betray me.” And they became greatly distressed and began to say to him one after another, “Surely not I, Lord?” He answered, “The one who has dipped his hand into the bowl with me will betray me. The Son of Man goes as it is written of him, but woe to that one by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been better for that one not to have been born.” Judas, who betrayed him, said, “Surely not I, Rabbi?” He replied, “You have said so.” Matthew 26: 17-25
Taize “Bless the Lord My Soul”
[Jesus] got up from the table, took off his outer robe, and tied a towel around himself. Then he poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet and to wipe them with the towel that was tied around him.He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?” Jesus answered, “You do not know now what I am doing, but later you will understand. Simon Peter said to him, “Lord, not my feet only but also my hands and my head!” Jesus said to him, “One who has bathed does not need to wash, except for the feet, but is entirely clean. And you are clean, though not all of you.” Very truly, I tell you, servants are not greater than their master, nor are messengers greater than the one who sent them. If you know these things, you are blessed if you do them. John 13:4-10, 16-17
Taize: “Ubi caritas” during Washing of the Feet/Hands
While they were eating, Jesus took a loaf of bread, and after blessing it he broke it, gave it to the disciples, and said, “Take, eat; this is my body.” Matthew 16:26
Taize “Wait for the Lord”
(Serving of the Bread, An invitation to all onscreen or in the bulletin is appropriate)
Then he took a cup, and after giving thanks he gave it to them, saying, “Drink from it, all of you; for this is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins. I tell you, I will never again drink of this fruit of the vine until that day when I drink it new with you in my Father’s kingdom.” Matthew 17:27-29
(Serving of the Cup)
Taize “Jesus Remember Me, When You Come into Your Kingdom”
When they had sung the hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives. Mathew 27:30
Here is a prayer for the pastors* The ones who are quitting the ones whose therapists ask “Is there another line of work you can do?”
Here’s a prayer for the pastors Who get phone calls about another piece of the building breaking… Another pillar of the church in the hospital… Another person threatening to leave…
Here’s a prayer for the pastor who hears the whispers who thought they would be backed up at the meeting only to hear silence
Here’s the prayer for the Pastor who draws the firm boundaries but grinds their teeth or gets migraines or talks to their therapist, spiritual director and prayer partner to keep it all together
Here’s a prayer to the pastor, who gets asked “Are you the pastor???” on the regular But has been serving faithfully, for many a year; competently and well
Here’s a prayer of the pastor, who has intrusive thoughts And suicidal ideation Here’s a prayer for the pastor, who gets a donation for the poor And thinks–but I am the poor
And has to figure out, which bill not to pay each month And is striving to help their congregation Even as they cannot meet their own needs Because church’s cannot conceive what salary is needed to live on these days
Here’s a prayer for a pastor who is far away from colleagues And is lonely, and trying to preach from their scars and not their wounds Here’s a prayer for the pastor
Who knows self care is not bubble baths and massages But has little time, money or energy to do what needs to be done Especially post-Covid Here’s a prayer for the burnt out pastor
Here’s the prayer for the pastor Banging on the governmental doors: Civic, Denominational; Local and National And says, “God give them ears to hear” and goes home with empty hands
Here’s a prayer for the pastor who needs support At every level and cries in the shower
“My God, My God Why have you abandoned Me?”
Here is a prayer for that Pastor I’m praying for you, so you don’t have to
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*This prayer is an amalgam of all those pastors who have been overwhelmed throughout my ministry life and does not represent any one person
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Content Warning: Sexual Abuse, Ordination Exams, Trauma
Bad Theology Kills There are nicer terminologies to make and there are definitely complete lexicons and entire books written of theology Karl Barth has a really complete theology of love Elie Wiesel asks tough questions about genocide war and abuse Just today, Amanda Palmer a somewhat Radical Feminist, who is all too imperfect herself (might I add) cited a quote her friend’s book who quoted the famous theologian Fredrick Buechner Amanda Palmer says “I feel this sentiment in my core today. I have seen, heard, been privy to so much darkness lately. I feel honored to stand near it, but also see – laid painfully bare, more than I ever have – the unfathomable and sometimes unbearable wounds of trauma. The depths. The seemingly unhealable.” She says this not knowing that this is a theological quote, but Amanda Palmer, pop star, gets it that Life is a Terror text
And for me Theology is how you practice your Christianity; It is where the rubber meets the road
Not being afraid means, dealing with the trauma as it comes, but also acknowledging that the trauma is real. One cannot pretend it isn’t real.
Because the reality is–Bad Theology kills
White Page that says Here is the world. Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Don’t be afraid–Frederick Buechner
But for me…
When you force the people you want to be pastors to sit in a room utterly alone with what is possibly the most traumatic text in the Bible its abusive
I guess I should start with this: I believe in apologies. I believe in full and complete apologies. I believe in confession. I believe in stating fully who you are, what you have done right and wrong and trying to fix what is wrong so that we can fix that wrong things, and make things better. It is a core theology of mine.
I think that there is confusion Those who are hurt do not want an apology for the Bible The apology would be for the trauma
And when you don’t apologize And you say–we have done such things before
And that does not make you examine how you have done things before
And when you feel like the entire weight of the church ordination and the denomination is on your shoulders
And that does not make you pause and confess and think
Maybe there could be a more life-giving way to do this
And when person after person has come to me and say This is the last straw
And these other people tell me I’m leaving ministry and the process of becoming a minister because of this test…
To pretend we have all sufficiently dealt with trauma On the eve of the third anniversary Of a worldwide pandemic Is ludicrous–there is not such thing as an untraumatized person right now So yes, we know trauma is real We also do not want to practice bad theological practices Because Bad Theology Kills We know this!
It is different to deal with a text Where you know in advance about it In community When you can call your therapist When your entire job is not on the line When you can ask for help
Also
If you don’t think that the Judges 19 scandal Isn’t cut from a similar cloth as the complementation scandal the Gospel Coalition is dealing with… You are missing how women continue to be subjugated and ignored via the Bible…(See Also: How is this coming to a head when trans bans, drag bans, books bans, teaching history bans and rest is happening gives a lot of food for thought) Because Bad Theology Kills: it is Killing calls to ministry right here and now
Picture of a women facing a panel of just men who say: It’s not that we don’t believe your story. IT’s that we don’t care. Cartoon by NakedPastor
Welp..I guess you were right.. I guess this test is that important But not in the way you thought it was
If more self care is needed for pastor By God, let’s do it! I’m all for it! What resources can we provide Let’s hire full time Sabbatical pastors, a therapist and a Chaplain, One for every Synod or for General Assembly If you want to be generous For every Presbytery!
You think more education is needed? Great lets open up free schools! Let’s provide arts clubs and places of music& PE all those things schools are cutting (Fun fact Sunday School taught kids to read FOR FREE When School was inacessable, because kids had to work; what could Sunday School be for the arts now– If we took that as our model?) Lets be the most educated denomination In the land. Let’s get that equity going! I bet all the kids would enroll In free college classes In LGBTQIA and Community Organizing classes What more could we provide–could we give free virtual classes in the Bible? What about classes about theology? The latest books? The Nap Ministry? This Here Flesh? The Possibilities are endless. Faith Seeking Understaning, we could learn so much together!
Lets help support all those Black and Brown Churches The ones we’ve been ignoring for years What resources do they need? I bet they could tell us what they need, and why, and give us a host of ideas, quick! Let’s start it tomorrow.
You think everyone is overworked and tired? Great, lets start pay equity and healthcare, Could we provide healthcare for our support staffs even more than we do now? How much more can God do? How is that Family Leave Overture going? I can tell you every pastor I know is looking at if your Presbytery has it before they consider moving there
Did your Presbytery, Synod or Leader agree or disagree with the Judges 19 test? Is your area dealing with a pastor shortage? I bet there is a more experience oriented, Justice-giving, innovative Matthew 25 way to Educate and Support Pastors.
Did you know most pastors are older, LBGTQIA, POC? They are not going to be the married white man with children, and that is great, because most ministries are going to be different from here on out. If we are going to reach the community, We are going to have to ordain pastors beyond the pews.
While we are re-imagining what it means to be a minister (Hint: look at all the ways to minister in Matthew 25) It might be time to rethink how we evaluate ministers:
I don’t know about you, but while I am running my church’s 3 nonprofits, and taking care of my congregation, I don’t have time to conjugate Greek and Hebrew verbs– I love the vocabulary, but the community is just a bit more important (Don’t worry its just me, I preach 48+ sermons a year, 13+ years, Princeton Trained, but my credentials matter less than my ministry work)
And while we are speaking of that and entry level ministry How many entry level ministers go to a flourishing ministry with associate ministers who take care of other things, while they sit in the office and work on their sermons, None?
My theology is to take care of the people first Of course I do that about talking about the Bible I reference (and study) the Bible EVERY single day But I don’t do that in Greek and Hebrew I do that by sitting by the Well and listening, and Walking in the Community and meeting people where they are at every chance I gettoCommunity build and partner.. I’m just following the example of some Rabbi I admire…
I hope you have time to do that too And maybe someday, we will realize that our goals are the same To be a Matthew 25 Church And to serve God and God’s people, together
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Call to Worship God, how is it your grace is so expansive Truly God, your keep calling us Come let us bless our God who calls us God calls us by name Let us keep God before us, God who is always at our right hand! God be praised, God is with us! Let us Praise God together!
Call to Confession: God is calling us to confess, Come let us confess ourselves to God
Prayer of Confession: God we confess that sometimes you have to call us more than once. Sometimes we are the ones that do not hear you until close til dusk. We confess that we envision ourselves as the early morning workers–but we do not know when it is you first called our name. God’s love is not a competition. Help us to remember that faith is always a gift, and that you are always, always calling us by name. Amen.
Assurance of Pardon: Hear the Good News: The Steadfast Love of the Lord never changes, God’s mercies never come to the end, they are new every morning, so we know that God will always love and forgive us. Let us proclaim the Good News: In Jesus Christ we are forgiven.
Prayer of the Day/Dedication: Let us go into the world refreshed by the Holy Spirit and remembering that it is God who is calling us by name. God loves us from the earliest dawn til the darkest dusk–let us go forth enveloped in that love. Amen.
Hymns: Morning has Broken, This is My Father’s World, Here I am Lord,
A child asks an average of 447 questions a day Be like a Child, Jesus says They are the greatest in heaven The wonderer The messy, giggling leap-before-they-lookers
So many churches mourn that they do not have children But I do not see them attending sports games or sponsoring tech and college scholarships I don’t see churches at school plays Why God?
If the kingdom of God is like childhood? Why isn’t the church full of coloring and children dancing down the aisles? If the Kingdom of Heaven is children?
I got in so much trouble, Jesus, you know, Because every time I got asked in an interview how I would bring in young families I would ask what the church was doing for the families…
Where do you children congregate, if you’re a congregation? I’d ask. Because if you’ve been on the floor with kiddos– I don’t have to tell you, that is truly heaven.
You don’t have to be the greatest to be with kids They don’t care if your are the best storyteller, or the most beautiful person in the room or if your the most famous I’ll let you in on a secret, when you spend time with them You are all of those things That is how to get to paradise
Instead of asking who is the greatest or how to get there, Jesus tells us to spend time with our children Not to ban books, not to change them to love them and be more like them
How about that ?
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