Jesus
I wasn’t there Good Friday
But I’ve planted a garden almost every year
despite the fact, my thumb is black, and nothing will ever grow
I have sat alone in middle school, at the lunch table, at the classroom
Being told to shut up every time I’ve spoken, isolated and alone
I have left a room
only to realize later that I participated in White Supremacy–
Leaving a Person of Color to fend for themselves
And I have participated in politics that have lead to people having to leave
or find solace, because they were so hurt by what happened
I have cried Hosanna! after Massive Gun Violence And Gender Violence
So many times–with phone calls, votes and letters
Again, and again, and again
I wasn’t there on Good Friday
But I have been abandoned or done the Abandoning
Jesus, I picture you
starting your descent into hell
with the words “My God, My God, Why have you abandoned me”
I wasn’t there that Good Friday–
Almost no one was–
Yet that was the point
Hate
Violence
Politics
Sexism
Patriarchy, All the bad things…seemed to be winning
I wasn’t there Good Friday,
But I have felt those pieces of Hell, the utter loneliness
the failure
I have heard the devil whispering to me
that I’m too different
that my voice doesn’t matter
that peace won’t win
that my betrayals are bigger than my good works
that THAT scene, the one on replay in my head? Everyone remembers that one about me
I don’t know how Jesus utterly cut off from Love
in Hell
But I know all humans feel that at some point;
so I know you did it Jesus
You walked into Hell…
so we wouldn’t be alone there anymore
To remind us that Nothing
no height, no death,
no
angels
no
demons
heaven
nor hell
can cut us off from the love of Jesus Christ
I wasn’t there Good Friday..But you were,
Un-abandoning us
Sitting with us
We can’t see you or hear you in the dark
But thanks for being there
with me when the seeds won’t grow,
at the lonesome lunch table
Or in the Aftermath
And it’s ok to sit in the dark for awhile
Amen.
Feel free to adapt/share/use with credit to Pastor Katy Stenta
Senator Jones in the foreground Rep Pearson in the background in a black suit—both with their fists raised after the two young, black men were expelled from Tennessee House for partying peaceful anti-gun demonstrations, the white woman senator was allowed to remain
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