Nebulous Prayers

And this morning God
All I can think about
is the passage

What forbids me from being baptized Philip?
asks the Ethiopian Eunuch
and I’m sure
Philip thinks
of all of the ramifications
that this person
is of nebulous rank
nebulous gender*
nebulous status
from another country

what authority does Philip have?
But Philip was sent by an angel
to say yes

And I feel like Philip
running alongside chariots
not knowing
what authority
we have

We are in a nebulous
time

knowing things are in flux
being asked hard questions

and I hope
we say
yes
as often
as we can

Because God knows
God is not preventing us
from loving
and including
each other

God’s yes
is strong
even when
we don’t know

And it’s ok
not to know

I don’t know God
that’s my prayer
I just don’t know
Amen

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*Though to be clear that individual, the Ethiopian Eunuch, may have known exactly who they were and what their gender status was, the LBTQIA breadth and depth is beautiful in all of it’s multiplicities 

Throw Jesus Off the Cliff

Some days
God
I feel like
we are throwing
Jesus
off a cliff


I feel like
we hear the words of prophecy
that say
Make things easier
help those in need

It is amongst the cacophony
of “Masculinity” “Capitalism”
and “Christian Nationalism”


Do you hear it under the cries for
Nazareth First?

Jesus says: I am here for the immigrant widow,
the strangers,
the broken,
the disabled,
the weird,
the LGBTQIA,
and the strange

I feel like
when we hear the echo
of Jesus’s voice
Calling us
to do the hard work
of the gospel

that when Jesus walks with us
and says
you are correct
Christianity
is not
about success

We have to sit down
and say
what is life about then

and many people
throw Christianity
leadership
Jesus
or whatever out

Why do we do this worship
thing
If it isn’t about that anyway?

Sometimes I want to put out posters
Come to church
We do brokenness
really well

Come to worship
We are bad at community

Join us Sunday
We have had to practice
for 2,000 years and are
still getting power dynamics
wrong

Put your faith not in
princes
power
and principalities

But the dandelion
still bloomed
A perfect
Weed
spreading
Wishies
for children
to blow
in the yard

I treasure God
calling me
a dandelion
full of
seeds
and
Wishes

Image: A child, in a red coat, you happily cannot tell their gender, drawing butterfly and heart) out of a giant dandelion (like making a wish). Image sourced from https://img.freepik.com/premium-photo/child-blowing-dandelion-with-heart-star-sketch_587981-17165.jpg


Practice focusing on God
practice community
practice honesty
exercise everyday–not
because you will win any races
But because walking together
is the journey

And some days
I too want to throw Jesus off the cliff
Because it’s clear
I still don’t get it

And then Jesus floats back
and hugs me
Because
it never was about
perfection
in the first place

But the moments of
beauty
community
laughter
still count

Thank God
for that

Amen

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When the World Continues to Burn

God,
the world continues to burn
and people continue to give
dare I say
hot takes
while people flee
breathe in smoke
or wait, bags packed, for the evacuation order

And we can feel the insurance structure
heavily burdened
crumble even more

And God,
for the rest of us
we feel climate change
breathing
on the back of our necks

As we still have to plan dinner
again
a solitary action in our
household units
in what used to be
a village action

The mundane things
of going to work
or school seem so trite
in comparison to what is going on in world
Is this how we respond to tragedy God?
Jesus Christ how do we go about our lives
in the midst of all of this?
(This is a serious question–as my teen would say)

And we look at the snow
in the South
the Fire in the West
the bare mountains
the mounting costs
of insurance

And yet, Divine one
You remind as the World Turns
That there is other news too
We see films of the heliocopters
making the exact water shots
to put out the fires
Of people waiting hours in line
to pay their respects
to Jimmy Carter–
Of all of the living Presidents
sitting together at the funeral
speaking of good seeds sown
that are recognized years later…


We see the pictures of
of the Mexican
and Canadian Firefighters
who come to help
and we hear the voices
of the undocumented Californians
who could not sleep safely
in their own homes
So instead
who journey to the fireline
to fight for their unknown neighbors

The Good News does not fix the Bad News
But it reminds us to be the Mr. Rogers Helpers
God may we be the Helpers
May we find substantive ways
To listen closely to the need for help

So that we me do just
love mercy
and walk humbly with God
i.e. not for show, but because
We have this ache to make the world
a place to dwell
that is are prayer today.
Amen

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Here is a blog post from my colleague and friend “about where to donate ““We are still fine.

-Winds changed last night, and new evacuations were called in the Palisades fire. Bel Air Pres building is under mandatory evac as are many people’s homes. Teams are fighting their hardest to keep it from spreading any further.

-Air quality in Culver City is still not great. The winds have calmed down here, but there is still ash falling from the sky.

-We live across from the street from the fire station, and we’ve just heard siren after siren. God bless them, and all the reinforcements that have come from far and wide.

In the midst of everything, I put away our Christmas decorations last night. I couldn’t help but look at every ornament and think what it would be like to lose them all and have to start again.

Here’s a short blog I wrote last night. Please pray for these fires to end.”

Please give to Presbyterian Disaster Assistance – all funds go to help victims and will be shared with communities affected by the Eaton fire as well

https://pcusa.org/donate/dr000165-us-wildfires

https://almostnamedgrace.substack.com/p/when-everything-changes?r=25qkxh&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&fbclid=IwY2xjawHvsMhleHRuA2FlbQIxMAABHSk1hcvm0mTlQmSeKcfXk-Q2t1LyMB4FtLVfxHrLHniA9jND2yBWnAFkaQ_aem_gS5ggy-a82_Z7OIo3OzG0A&triedRedirect=true

A Prayer for a World on Fire

Prayers for those evacuating
and for those for whom it feels impossible

Prayers for those whose homes, works and worship spaces are gone
and those who are caught in the space of not knowing

Prayers for those who has ash rain on them from the sky
Who think all the thoughts of thankfulness to Firefighters
worry for those working in the emergency services
Anger that we could not prevent this

Prayers for all of us
who sit in the midst of a world on fire
and think
This isn’t fine
actually
It isn’t fine at all

As we reach out
with communications
money
(hopefully not with unneeded clothing, etc. that clogs the system)
shelter
medical care
emergency items
and hope

So that we can put out
this fire
and prevent
the next one

Prayers for California
Prayers for all those
whose lives have been changed
May we all walk together
So that all the fires may be put out
Amen

Pic of Dog on Fire Meme using a fire hydrant to put it out—”It’s not fine, and you have a responsibility to act” (This meme would be more perfect if the dog had help, because I’m sure part of the point is that the dog felt alone in their work) Image found https://mastodon.sdf.org/@HunterZ/112714963002922245 and was credited to @spocko

"This is fine" dog spraying a fire extinguisher at a burning table, with caption "it's *not* fine, and you have a responsibility to act."

Prayer for when you don’t know what you Need*

God,
I don’t know what I need
I don’t know what we need
The world
is not as it should be

My soul hurts
I am hurt
scared

overwhelmed with emotions
and I don’t know what I need

Because
there is no way
to fix this

Trust has been
broken
again

More
has been
uncovered
apocalyptically

And at this moment
the work
seems to be
too much

And so
I make time
to hug by beloveds

To
Breathe In: I Exist
Breathe Out: That is enough

To remind myself
That the very existence
of difference
joy
grace
love
solidarity
Is an act of resistance

So definitely,
today
That is enough
Breathe in: I exist
Breathe out: That is enough

Tomorrow
or Sometime Soon
I will build more community
Maybe figure out more
what it is
we need
Today
I will breathe

I exist
That is enough

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*With thanks to Rev. Tawnya Denise Anderson who first posted these words

Waiting for Results, a Prayer

God,
We just don’t know

Picture of the United States drawing scribbled over/colored by a child “What we know so far” Shared by Dan Chan @danchaon.bsky.social on bluesky social app


So many have done
what they can
to sew peace

To establish
humanity
human rights

And
Lord have mercy
because
we are
already
exhausted


“Next Week Has Been Exhausting” by Diane Duane


Anticipatory
Exhaustion
may be the hardest

I remember
when my child
was in the run away
and legitimate
insomnia
(beyond normal)
phase

And I would
wake up
looking forward
to a nap
I would have for
the day
after
today

God
you know
My soul is weary
Is your
soul weary
God?

Because
even after the
election

You know
We know
That no matter
the outcome

There is
hard work
to do

This is about more
than leadership


(I remember
in the Old Testament
When
Hebrew people
wanted a King
and you warned them
That is not enough)

And yet
Breathe in: I am here
Breathe out: God is here

This is true today
This is true tomorrow

This is how I will wait
Because all good work counts

Maybe especially
when
it seems
like it doesn’t

Pneuma
Holy Spirit
Breathe for me
When I can’t

Breathe in: I am here
Breathe out: God is here

Amen

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Holy In-Betweens

It is a lot of work
this
human
Being
Be
ing
Human
Existence
Thing

Sometimes I think
we are
eternally
Suspended
in the
What Ifs

Embodiment
is so difficult

If potential
is always
teasing
(sometimes
even mocking)
me

How can
I do what my
body needs

When capitalism
demands
grind

And yet
God
you sit with us


How can
I feel my feelings

The hard work of Grieving:
Good things
Bad things

To sit in comfort

To be thankful

To sit in-between both

To feel a slow stretch
(within your comfort range of motion
without any pain as my favorite
yogi friend says)
so slow and gentle
that you are stretched
in such a way
that there is no pain
and still

tears

Of relief comes
dripping
To your eyes

to my eyes

And

God is there
in each tear

Reminding us
sanctuary
is holy
Community
is holy

Upholding your
boundaries
is holy

Silence


Is holy

Taking time alone
is holy

You string the sky with stars
and give us dandelions
beautiful leaves
and even single blades of grass
to remind us of the holiness of the world

Breathe in
Breathe out

To be
lost
in holiness

Amen

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Stormy Prayer

God,
We are so tired
Of
Unnatural Disasters
1, in a 1,000 chance
Hurricane, Flood, Tropical Storm
Things

Holy Spirit
We do not have to tell you
the weariness
the dwells
within
our very Souls

It is the weariness
that aches
as we
try to figure out
Evacuate
or Stay
What path is the storm
taking?

What Path is
Humanity Taking

Sweet Beloved
Peacemaking
Jesus
You know the trauma
that is being wrought
–this is not just about
climate change

Perhaps it has never been
It is humanity
trying to hold
hands with one another

before
during
and
after

these tragedies

And then
crying out
because we realize
we don’t know how

Teach us
to sit with
the Job’s
who have
lost everything

Teach us to
understand the
bitter Mara’s
and the
resourceful
Naomi’s
with their found
families

Teach us to
listen to the
leadership
of the Esther
who stand up
for the marginalized
and forgotten
at such a time
as this
during trauma
and devastation

Teach us to
sing with Miriam
when there are
moments of joy
and triumph
even in the sadness.

Walk with us God
and teach us
how to love one
another
and care for
your world
and all the humans
in it
we pray.
Amen.

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PHOTO: 

MOUNTAIN MULE PACKER RANCH

 Photo from: https://www.southernliving.com/hurricane-helene-north-carolina-mules-8721273

God and Small things, a prayer after Biden steps back, and Kamala Harris steps up

God is in the little things
listening ears
true communication
ice cream

(Today is National Ice Cream Day)


God is in the
small things
a woman’s voice
being
heard
acknowledged
supported

(Bria Goeller’s image of Kamala Harris walking with the shadow of Ruby Bridges, who integrated a New Orleans elementary school in 1960, went viral over the weekend, shared tens of thousands of times on social media. Image courtesy of Bria Goeller and WTF America-Good Trubble.)

people working
together

People
stopping and
celebrating
achievements

(Image thanks to John Michael Cleghorn) “Well done Good and Faithful Servant” Gold Rimmed Old-Fashioned Biden sunglasses lying upside-down on a table.

God is in the most important
Small things
dignity
respect
humanity
all those things
we hope
bind us together

God is in these things
And when we sit together
And look at the heavens–
God remind us of the
smallest things

Pic from: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/345510602680019192/ Calvin and Hobbes looking at the stars “If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I’ll be they’d live a lot differently.”

We pray
Amen.

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Reminder: please always vote your conscience, no one from the pulpit or a church should tell you who to vote for. I, Katy can celebrate a smooth transition to a new candidate and a black woman as the apparent nominee for president as a historic moment, but no one should tell you how to vote. Especially not a pastor. Vote for the person who will love all the neighbors best and teach forgiveness, grace and respect. Bc those are three values of Christianity.

Breathe, a Prayer in the midst of everything

Breathe
I hear the Holy Spirit whisper
as I try to figure out
what it is I am feeling

Anxiety?
Excitment?
Grief?
Fear?

I am trying to catalogue

Natural Disasters
Wars

Politicians
Name-Calling
Which let’s be honest God,
the last two are the same thing
(usually)

Now this violence

Breathe, I hear God
And I think about
how my family,
where allergies and asthma runs prevalent
says joking
but not

that breathing is highly

Underrated

Breathe, says Jesus
laying down a pillow
Inviting me in
to take sanctuary
to rest

But I don’t have an answer
a solution
I haven’t even figure out
how to tell the story
of what is going on

In the universe
and how to relate to it
all

God nods
And I nod
and sigh
and my eyes begin to droop

And I realize
that God knows all of these things are important

Breathe in: God will see to the humans
Breathe out: It’s ok not to have the answers

Amen

Image of breaths in Blues and slight pinks and yellow “Breathe on me breath of God” “Vene Sancte Spiritus” “Bo Ruach Elohim” Entitled: The Promise of the Holy Spirit from https://boruachelohim.com/tag/breathe/