#BreakBlessBuild prayer (inspired by #NextChurch)

Lord, we confess we are Breaking. Shards of our personality lie upon the floor, mixed with the pieces of relationships we are trying to pick up and maintain.

It’s hard to see what parts of me are missing, because everything is so messy. I’m a mess, my house is a mess, and what is time in this mess anyway?

And we want to build so fast, God, but we don’t know the landscape yet.

How many things have to break before we start to rebuild? So far we’ve lost a dishwasher, an oven, an HVAC system, 3 phones, 2 tablets and a computer.

And they are nothing compared to the families we have broken, the healthcare system that is broken, the minimum wage is broken, education is broken, and whiteness breaks everything else along the way.

Is this how your people felt, when they lost their Temple?

Is this how Mary felt when she broke the perfume over your feet?

Is this how your disciples felt when they left you to die on the cross?

God, we are broken. Teach us to build. Help us to build peace, build hope, build relationships. Stop our hands from building structures, edifices and properties. Teach us instead to build up each other.

Bless us Jesus, with your abudant blessings that neither depend upon our brokenness or our building. Instead it is your binding–magnitizing us with love, encouraging us to love and serve one another.

Bless us, Because…

Just Because.

Break us, Bless us, Build us through our binding to you we pray.

Amen.

Ducks & Wild Geese

Lord God, I know that my ducks aren’t in a row,

because I don’t even know what my ducks are anymore.

How do I prioritize when everything is important? How do I do self care when my hours are chunked in weird ways and the schedule remains nebulous and to the wind.

Even when I breathe sighs of relief, or take moments of joy…I know that the ducks are waiting.

Sometimes they quack at me in the middle of the night, awakening me with all the things I’ve forgotten, or all the problems I’m not sure how to solve.

Lord knows, (that’s you God) that I don’t have my ducks in a row.

My work is never perfect no matter how much I try, my kids need more attention than ever (not to mention socialization) and I can’t seem to find a minute for myself.

Plus everything is different, still! Again! Always!

And ignoring the fact we can’t keep the house clean anymore isn’t really working either.

Are these even the duckies I should be worried about? What ducks am I missing? I’m sure I’m missing some, somewhere.

And I wonder if this is how Jesus felt, as he was chasing down that Wild Goose of the Holy Spirit.

Did he look around at the ducks and said, one of these is the goose, but I just can’t find the one I’m supposed to chase down and catch first.

But maybe, hopefully, the chase is enough. Hopefully between the chasing and the quacking, I have a moment to reflect on what I have completed, or what has gone right.

Or perhaps I will give myself one of those adulting prizes: for sleeping or eating or drinking water or moving around or taking medication. Those all count as important things done.

God, maybe my ducks have never been in a row–after all they are all your ducks and geese anyway. But help me to organize myself in such a way that I can let go of the ducks I can let go of and chase the right things to pursue the Holy Spirit of inspiration, comfort, energy and hope.

Maybe it isn’t about ducks at all, maybe it’s really about the Wild Goose of the Holy Spirit. Remind me to chase down the Wild Goose, and that this Wild Goose Chase is surely worth it.

God will help us to flourish, even at such a time that we don’t know where our ducks are.

Remind us of this we pray. Amen.

Feel free to use/adapt with credit to Pastor Katy

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Looking for a Sign

Lord, God, Jesus, Dude. You know this prayer. I’ve said it often enough.

I’m trying to make decisions, but am weary from the road.

And a lot of what has to be done feels like starting over.

And God, I don’t want to have to start over again,

So here is one my favorite prayers: If you want to—send a sign,

about what I should do

where I should go

who I should be..

I wouldn’t mind God.

Because you know we humans have trouble seeing what is right in front of us

You know that we play denial likes its an Olympic sport,

and too often our eyes are bleary.

Lord, God I wouldn’t mind a sign or two right now.

And if it isn’t a sign—maybe you can give me a nudge.

And if it’s not a nudge…

please squeeze my hand and remind me you are here I pray,

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In the most Holy Name of God, who never tires of the same prayer over and over again, that’s the God I pray to today.

Amen.

Feel Free to Use/Adapt with credit to Pastor Katy Stenta

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