Lord, I confess that it would be a heck of a lot easier to throw up my hands and say God will provide.
It’s easy to look to heaven for answers, instead of grace. I’m a practically minded person, somedays solutions are all I want. Not hints or insights or learning journeys, a neon sign pointing to what I should do and how I should fix it seems easier.
Though I know this is easier, I also know you are a God who loves me and teaches me exactly the way I am. You do not force my hand, nor my choices. And the truth is, sometimes even when the solution is made obvious, I have trouble recognizing it until afterwards.
You have foresight, I am only blessed with hindsight.
Like Thomas, we think the solution is seeing to believe, and instead he ignore’s the wounds and give Jesus a hug.
This is why Acts is so important, because it’s only after the fact of Jesus’s Resurrection that they start to understand what it’s all about.
This is why Easter is not one day, because we need time and hindsight to truly act upon the commandments that Christ has given us.
Remind me Lord that this Unfolding Easter, this grace in action, this time to practice the kingdom over and over is a gift. And that solutions wouldn’t have helped me understand anyway.
For God is about love and grace and forgiveness, not solutions.
Because we are not a problem, we are the part of the relationship.
Remind me of this I pray.