Have mercy on us,
The sign didn’t say.
Instead it said,
that we may not have all of the items
you need, for our truck,
didn’t come in today.
And that is exactly how I feel today, God.
After a week of emotional wraughtness
(which spellcheck tells me is not a real word)
Of good school start, and scary Covid news,
and exhausting abortion, masks, Natural Disasters, Afghanistan, 9/11 and more…
After a week of reopening church events, and finally getting some rentals of the building
and reopening the Nursery School
and seeing the smiling faces of tiny students
behind the masks that we have put into tiny
and hopefully safe classes.
(Please, Lord in your mercy, help us to keep them safe)
I find that I am all out of emotions.
So if you could give me a week God,
or even a weekend off,
of big emotions.
I would be very grateful–
because when I reach for an emotion I need
be it happy or sad or mournful or contented.
Sometimes, I’m not sure that I have what I need.
For I have used up way more than a week’s supply,
within the last week.
How does one take a break from emotions, God?
And I mean this, of course, in a healthy way.
When the world keeps on turning,
and the kids keep asking questions,
and life seems to be restarting,
If you could help me to figure out
some more ways to recharge–
I would be grateful.
In the meantime I will pray, and seek sunlight and read and do yoga,
and call friends and do the church thing and spend time with family,
until I figure out what else to do…
or how to change the world.
Thank you for listening God.
With thanks to @KendraWrites for the inspirational tweet.
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