Lord, today I wonder what you think when you see our skies in California, stretched orange with smoke.
When Karachi is flooded.
When Superstorm Laura winked out the power before a heat wave.
When Beirut explodes, and Typohoon Haishen blows through Japan and South Korea.
Did you have a big messy cry when violence erupted not once but twice in Kenosha, WI?
God I cannot even grasp the news. I can feel people falling through the gaps as children go hungry and try to sign online to education.
Are there days when you feel like you can’t look at the news anymore–does God wish God could close God’s own eyes sometimes? And yet I know you never do.
You work for that justice that has been delayed and therefore denied too long! No justice, no peace.
For you have promised that one day justice and peace will make love!
I worry about the jobless, the homeless, the sick.
I worry that I haven’t upheld my promise to be anti-racist today. (I haven’t, and the work continues)
I am continually angered by the hotspots that people don’t seem to want to control.
I cringe at how in policy, protection and politics about how all lives–don’t!–matter. Cringe and taste vomit in my mouth.
Today, I think the orange skies pretty much exactly show how absurd my emotions have become.
And though I really don’t think you punish us with disasters–I highly suspect there are a million exit signs on the road that we willfully ignore–I do wonder how you process them all.
Lord God Almighty. What do we do when the sky turns orange?
Please take my messy cries, my absurd emotions, my mistakes, my exhaustion, my cringing and the vomit in my mouth. And shape them into a prayer.
An embodied prayer, so that we can do that which needs to be done.
With my entire self I pray.
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