God, you know I have a brain
that just will not stop
It wrestles with what could have been
what should have been
What if I did this differently?
Was it me, Lord? What if it was all my fault?
What if I lost my chance?
But then God picks me up
places me on my feet
and blesses me,
me and my imperfect body
Maybe you didn’t know God
I’ve got racing thoughts
and a mind that wrestles
And by the way
my hip now hurts…too
What is that?
You are blessing me
Any
Any
Any
way
Not, anyway
Just a blessing
A blessing for
the one
the one who cannot stop wrestling
A blessing for the one who is all too aware
of their awkwardness
their imperfections
Their past
You are blessed
(and can bless others)
God whispers
and then sits, and watches the sunrise with me
So that I know that
even as my brain races
and still cannot comprehend
God sits with me
in my wrestling
So I no longer feel
Alone
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