Today I wonder if you shared some insecurities with your mom,
If you told her you had to leave home,
and start to do all of the dangerous things
she sang about
when you were still in vitro–
and I wonder if you had imposter syndrome
Because your were–after all, fully human,
I wonder if you whispered that you didn’t want to leave home to her
in the middle of the night
or if you worried about leaving your brothers and sisters
when Joseph is so conspicuously absent from the picture now
You, the eldest, the man of the house,
would be leaving too, just to cause a revolution, that’s all
and here is your Mother’s blessing,
at a wedding,
I wonder if she wanted to give you a good memory to start your journey…
if these were good family friends
who had more friends than they could afford–and I can just imagine God
how you looked Jesus when you were like,
“Seriously Woman, this is not what God’s power is for!”
And Mary, Chosen of God, doesn’t even deign to answer her son.
Lord, I just imagine the Mom Look she gives Jesus.
God, I’d love to be able to see someone giving
Jesus, Christ our Lord and Savior, a Mom Look—
Because aren’t those Mom Looks affirming of all that we are, and can be–
they are the opposite of imposter syndrome, are they not?
Mary, gives the Mom Look and then commands everyone in the Room
“You will do as my son says” and gives a grand exit,
Beginning Jesus’s ministry with a flourish…of hospitality,
She blesses Jesus’s ministry with a Party–She starts the ministry as it must end–
with the outpouring of wine.
There is no formal communion narrative in John, but it fits in right here…
as we on the inter-webs argue about what can make communion..
telling us all we need to know about communion
God you turned water into wine,
you know the truth–
its all real,
every drop of Hospitality and Communion,
and identity Affirmation,
Don’t ever let us forget I pray.
In the name of your Partying Jesus Christ,
and his affirming Mother I pray.
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