Tantrum Prayer

As my child is screaming Lord, I say a quick prayer.

Because really, I want to scream too.

On this day when we found a way to safely see our friends, we got lost.

And we are almost there, but the child is screaming, it’s pitch black out, and the roads are unfamiliar. And the other one is whimpering too.

And I’m trying to drive.

The third time we make a U-Turn and finally get through to our friends…

we can not longer hear the directions she is trying to tell, because the screaming is too loud, or the road is too dark, or the pandemic is too much.

God, this is my prayer to you, because in my heart I’m screaming. I’m screaming, lost in the dark.

And so we turn around, and go home–all of us crying, some of us out loud.

And truthfully, like a child I just want to scream,

until you pick me up,

put me to bed,

And Let me start again in the morning.

I am grateful that you are a God I can tantrum to, You are a place where I can admit that I am lost, you are the parent whom I can admit that I’m not hearing or seeing or processing well anymore.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

men.

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3 Replies to “Tantrum Prayer”

  1. Oh Katy, sending hugs and prayers. I relate so strongly to your words in so many ways. I’m often jealous at the unfiltered emotions allowed in our small people, and yearn for that same freedom. I hope you find a space for genuine screaming, genuine tears and genuine release of all that rests upon your heart. Much Love, Susan

  2. Not so infrequently I think it would be ok to be 2 or 3 years old where when everything is wrong and we are screaming someone else will pick us up and fix it.

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