Crises of Faith

God, I’m in the midst of some kind of crises of faith.

As a person who always believe in happy endings, I’m not convinced it will all turn out alright in the end.

Because God, we are still being called into your story.

Like Jonah, who first refused the call. He didn’t want to go. He wasn’t going.

Ninevah wasn’t worth it.

Or maybe Jonah wasn’t worth it.

Either way, he didn’t wanna and God couldn’t make it.

So he hopped a boat to sail away–like the runaway bunny.

And then, the storms came, the dice were rolled and the fingers were pointed to Jonah.

God, Someone said whoever needs to go to Ninevah better get going…

but I know the truth, I know why it’s a crises, because the answer is us!

We are Jonah. And my crises of faith, is I don’t know if we can right ourelves.

God, I know you are speaking, whispering, yelling in our ears. God I don’t have faith that we have the ears to hear.

You say, help those who are in trouble: the lgbtquia people who are threatened, the black people who suffer state violence every single day, the women who are losing their jobs and their rights, the children and families who are still in f—ing cages!

And see, I know I’m like Jonah, because if/when people repent, can I practice grace?

I don’t have faith that I can.

So I’ll have to rely on yours Lord.

Holy Spirit, help me to breathe into this crises of faith, I pray.


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Pastor Katy has enjoyed ministry at New Covenant since 2010, where the church has solidified its community focus. Prior to that she studied both Theology and Christian Formation at Princeton Theological Seminary. She also served as an Assistant Chaplain at Trenton Psychiatric Hospital and as the Christian Educational Coordinator at Bethany Presbyterian at Bloomfield, NJ. She is an writer and is published in Enfleshed, Sermonsuite, Presbyterian's today and Outlook. She writes prayers, liturgy, poems and public theology and is pursuing her doctorate in ministry in Creative Write and Pittsburgh Theological Seminary. She enjoys working within and connecting to the community, is known to laugh a lot during service, and tells as many stories as possible. Pastor Katy loves reading Science Fiction and Fantasy, theater, arts and crafts, music, playing with children and sunshine, and continues to try to be as (w)holistically Christian as possible. "Publisher after publisher turned down A Wrinkle in Time," L'Engle wrote, "because it deals overtly with the problem of evil, and it was too difficult for children, and was it a children's or an adult's book, anyhow?" The next year it won the prestigious John Newbery Medal. Tolkien states in the foreword to The Lord of the Rings that he disliked allegories and that the story was not one.[66] Instead he preferred what he termed "applicability", the freedom of the reader to interpret the work in the light of his or her own life and times.

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